This post is to share with you a story about how God is a God of comfort. Two and a half years ago I was on a 15 hour flight headed to the Philippines. It’s about seven hours into the flight and the majority of the people on the plane are sleeping but I am wide awake on the verge of tears with my thoughts racing. I’m talking with God, telling him about the things that are scaring me. I tell him;God I can’t move my entire life to the other side of the world. I can’t do it by myself, I just can’t so you have to have another plan.
I want to pause here to tell you guys that at this point in my life I was convinced I would be a missionary, it’s the only thing I’v wanted to do with my life. Even with the calling of being a missionary on my heart I did not feel that God was calling me to any specific country or ministry yet. God had not called me to the Philippines yet. Now that you know where I was at do you see why this freak out really made no sense to me?
I decided that this was foolish of me to freak out about, because God had not even called me anywhere yet. I calmed myself and placed this freak out in the back of my mind, so I could focus on the conference I was there to attend. Throughout the week I tried to focus on the people I was getting to know, encourage, and pray with; but I felt this slight disappointment. This sadness that I told God I wouldn’t be a missionary. What was I gonna do now?
Now let’s fast forward to my last night In the Philippines. I got some time alone in my hotel room for the first time during the whole trip. I began to pray and almost instantly started crying. All I kept thinking was I’m sorry God but I just can’t. At this point the Lord spoke the first verse of a song to my heart.
“I hear the savior say, thy strength indeed is small. Child of weakness watch and pray, find in me your all and all.”
I could not remember the rest of the song so I just sat and sang this verse over and over.
Over the last two years every time I have come to place of breaking, or feeling like I just can’t do it, this song has come on the radio, or has been sung by the person leading worship. It has been Gods gentle reminder to me over the years, saying child I know you are weak, I know you can’t do it, all you have to do is pray and keep your eyes on me.
Today I sit overwhelmed with joy that the Lord is now bringing this story full circle. He has actually called me to go. To move my life to the other side of the world. The way he works is truly so beautiful! My hope is that as you read this you are encouraged in the same way that I have been. God is clearly greater than our weaknesses! We need only to pray and look to him!
“Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.” Psalm 46:10
Have a beautiful day and be encouraged friends 🙂