I hear the savior say…

This post is to share with you a story about how God is a God of comfort. Two and a half years ago I was on a 15 hour flight headed to the Philippines. It’s about seven hours into the flight and the majority of the people on the plane are sleeping but I am wide awake on the verge of tears with my thoughts racing. I’m talking with God, telling him about the things that are scaring me. I tell him;God I can’t move my entire life to the other side of the world. I can’t do it by myself, I just can’t so you have to have another plan.

I want to pause here to tell you guys that at this point in my life I was convinced I would be a missionary, it’s the only thing I’v wanted to do with my life. Even with the calling of being a missionary on my heart I did not feel that God was calling me to any specific country or ministry yet. God had not called me to the Philippines yet. Now that you know where I was at do you see why this freak out really made no sense to me?

I decided that this was foolish of me to freak out about, because God had not even called me anywhere yet. I calmed myself and placed this freak out in the back of my mind, so I could focus on the conference I was there to attend. Throughout the week I tried to focus on the people I was getting to know, encourage, and pray with; but I felt this slight disappointment. This sadness that I told God I wouldn’t be a missionary. What was I gonna do now?

Now let’s fast forward to my last night In the Philippines. I got some time alone in my hotel room for the first time during the whole trip. I began to pray and almost instantly started crying. All I kept thinking was I’m sorry God but I just can’t. At this point the Lord spoke the first verse of a song to my heart.
“I hear the savior say, thy strength indeed is small. Child of weakness watch and pray, find in me your all and all.”
I could not remember the rest of the song so I just sat and sang this verse over and over.

Over the last two years every time I have come to place of breaking, or feeling like I just can’t do it, this song has come on the radio, or has been sung by the person leading worship. It has been Gods gentle reminder to me over the years, saying child I know you are weak, I know you can’t do it, all you have to do is pray and keep your eyes on me.

Today I sit overwhelmed with joy that the Lord is now bringing this story full circle. He has actually called me to go. To move my life to the other side of the world. The way he works is truly so beautiful! My hope is that as you read this you are encouraged in the same way that I have been. God is clearly greater than our weaknesses! We need only to pray and look to him!

“Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.” Psalm 46:10

Have a beautiful day and be encouraged friends 🙂

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The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places

Psalm 67:3
“let the people’s praise you O God; let all the peoples praise you! Let the nations be glad and sing for joy”

The thought of all the peoples praising the Lord and singing with joy to God is something that has always made my heart smile. The knowledge that there are so many people in the world who have never heard his name, or the saving grace of the gospel has broken my heart since the day I realized it. For years I have felt the Lord tugging at my heart and preparing me to go. For years I’ve been crying out Lord send me. Today I started this blog to tell you, the mind blowing awesomeness, that God has decided to use me as a missionary to be a part of making him known through all of the earth!!!

I am going to the Philippines to the island of Cebu, through TEAM a missions sending agency! There I will be joining a church planting team, to start a church in a city that currently has no church! I get the opportunity to serve with this team for 2 years at least, and I also will be getting to learn to speak Cebuano (which I’m seriously so excited about!)

There are so many beautiful pieces of my life that God has pieced together to bring me to this journey. I’m so amazed at all that he has done and it’s often completely unbelievable to me. All that I have watched God do has led me to be so excited to watch the ways that he will provide now to get me to where he has called me to be. As this journey begins I will be sharing with you all the ups, downs, and needs I have as I raise support to get on that plane! I hope you are encouraged by what the Lord is doing and are obedient to how he his calling you to be apart of making his name know throughout all the earth!

“How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed? And how are they to believe in him whom they have never heard? And how are they to hear without someone preaching? And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, “how beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!””
Romans 10:14-15

Love you all thanks for reading 🙂